Things that make you go Hmmm...

A crash, metal screaming against metal bones crushing,
Did they crack?
Was it all so fast the mind couldn't comprehend
A flash? A gap?
Could you make sense of it all so quickly changing
Waiting
Were you conscious when they found you
Was there anyway to call
Do you you know how much we love you
and never want you to fall
To hurt or torment
I understand your anger, the rage, the need to vent or blame
But Ugly words and and alcohol don't change what will always be true
The blood writhing through these veins is the same that is in you
Do you know how close you came
how far you almost went
How many years have been wasted by things we should repent
Do you know that I forgive you
for never being there
for turning away in fear or anger
Leaving the familiar for things stranger
Do you know how much we can handle
these three
Stronger than all the ties that bind us, the strength our mother used to be
Do you know the worry, time spent wishing your life had been softer,
the battles lost and things taken
Wishing somehow I could have saved you
still wish I could save you from the evil monster that gathered us all to hate
Fathered us all to abuse
How much I wish I could take your place in the hurt you endured
The years spent so far away from all the people that love you best
Who couldn't save you from everything that broke you and changed you from the boy you used to be
Do you know how much I love you

We're three
Like musketeers but something sadder joined by such life that left us all tattered and broken, so scarred
You must know that I miss you
that guy you used to be
How I ache for your sorrow, all the people you've lost, I know how it must cost you.
It echoes in every thought
Such pain.
I wish I could take it all away how I miss you dearly I can't even say
I live within you, and you within me
And she
We're bound together forever and always
We're blood my brother and as it should be us three standing together to overcome the grief
To make sense of the crying and nothing and dying
our years stretch before us
However long and unsure