Orphanhood

Geez Mama,
I wish so much that you were here lately for me to talk to. I wish I could just lay my head on your chest and cry out all my problems and you could fix them up with a hug and a kiss like when I was little.
I wish I could go back, we could go back, all of us.
I wish you had let on sooner that you were dying and given us all a chance to gather some more of your wisdom. We could've stashed it away in notebooks and saved those gems for our hardest days when we need a little strength. There's nothing like your mama having confidence in you, or being proud of your decisions to wipe away the fear that accompanies them so often.
Oh Mama, sweet Mama it's a hard day today without you here.