these days...

It seems so hard to know
when's the next one coming
what will be the next blow...
I wonder if it's you.
So hard to see the future
for what's right in front of me
I whisper secrets
let them fill the air
like I'm not afraid
like I don't care
and every day that comes
I think of your good-bye
I wonder, when it comes
will I be glad, or will I just cry.
This world is spinning fast
and each tomorrow blurs
I can't know what happens next
or just forget,
I know it's gonna hurt.
why am I trying now
to let it out
when I'm still afraid
I wanna see your face
feel your skin on mine
let it warm my heart
and make you mine

I wonder if I dare
be brave enough to say
I want you in my arms
and by my side
let's let the music play
look into my soul
and make me whole

I know that I won't dare
whisper those words to you
the fear's to strong
that you'll be gone
if I let myself give into you
But what use is this life
where I'm only half myself
pieces stolen and scattered
and shattered by someone else
somehow your words ring true
I feel them in  my heart
but I'll never say these things
because of the fear it brings
that breaks me in two