waiting game...

a million thoughts
i can't stop thinking
wish like hell i could be drunk

it could be so easy
sweet as honey, smooth and warm
just to take the edge off,
survive this storm

tired of the same fight
all my life
it's all I'll ever be
my father's curse lives on
never good enough
never wanted

not worth the fight

 I don't wanna play
whatever this new game is
wondering... what how and why
everything has to change in an instant
always comes down to this

you never know it's the last kiss

try as you might
do everything right
won't matter anyway
when some one else comes along and tears it all a part
old situations unresolved
and not my fault

but i'll be the one to pay the price

i don't want to fight
say everything you already know
hear everything I know you're thinking
just to hear the same sad line

it's just a countdown now...

left alone with my thoughts for far too long
burning questions i need answers

but all i have is a closed door

thought i had it figured out before you came along
i was fine alone
not knowing you were out there
like every love song on the radio

proven wrong again

it's the devil's dance
give you a taste of what you can never have

I'm tired of being the one that gets left